As the lyric “to every season turn, turn, turn” spins in my mind I am back (albeit briefly) to say HELLO in here today. My last post informed you that I’d be taking a vacation from doing this. I didn’t know when I’d return, if ever. At all. Goodbye cruel internet world! Okay that’s a bit dramatic. I needed to take time to figure out if I still wanted to do “this” and what “this” blog experience is to me.
I’m here TODAY to tell you the BIG news of what has been going on with us lately. As well as what I’ve decided to do about blogging. It’s all very good news. The past few months since the post on November 21st 2015 I’ve been LIVING, loving, and being with my husband again after deployment. We’ve had to dig our heels in and do the work of figuring out how to parent our wee daughter together.
It wasn’t all a picnic, but we’ve done it. I feel it. The resolve. The knowing that I can sort-of-kind-of relax for a minute and enjoy things. I have a terrible tendency to think the ceiling may fall through at any minute. That’s no “carpe diem” outlook so I’m working on that. I’m working on settling in, settling down, and acknowledging that change is around the corner for us again soon (hello PCS…non military peeps that means we’re moving). A lightbulb went off for me this week when I realized that change will always be in the air. Our daughter changes EVERY DAY. Seriously. Sometimes she just wakes up from her nap with a new brilliant (or naughty) idea of what life is at that moment. Change is good. It’s hard. But it is absolutely necessary.
In my time off I realized what I missed most about “this” blog is the WRITING. I miss writing. I miss putting words out there and having them received. When Ryan and I originally talked about this (and thank you my man for listening to me agonize over blogging like way more than you probably ever thought you signed up for in this marriage) he said, “if you miss writing, just write”. So I did that. And then I realized whilst writing that I missed sharing.
This blog stands as a testament to three moves over five years. It’s our time capsule. It’s our life in words/photos/and stories that I wrote in the moment. Stories that are still so fresh when I read them that I’m transported back to that precious time. I need those words. I need the project and the platform that gets those words out. I could easily sit down and start working on the book of our life. But here it is. Right now. Living and breathing in it’s own little internet library. Shareable. Ready. I think you’ve guessed now that I can’t give it up…but there is a hitch.
The BIG breakdown: Over the past 3 months I went through EVERY SINGLE POST I HAD EVER WRITTEN. 1,277. Yup. That many. I whittled it down to 475 posts in total (+ these last few that I’m using to tie up loose ends). I’ve ordered a book that chronicles all of that remaining work for our family. I look back at them and I feel the hours I spent working. Dreaming. Telling stories. I’ve loved reliving it.
However to move forward in this new world of internet, and move forward in my journey as a parent, change is inevitable.
I’m going to be changing this space. I’m going to be changing the way I approach blogging. With the five-year old blog printed and published in my hands, this site is going to be shut down. See ya later. Thanks for being here.
I am opening a new site. I’m hoping you’ll like, nay LOVE the new approach. I’m focusing on the STORIES. I’m writing all the feelings, all of the swirly twirly emotions of motherhood down in one place, and here’s the best part…
I’m inviting others to join me. I’ll still be providing snippets of Swoboda household life along the way, but specifically tailored to protecting my daughter. I don’t know where this crazy world is going. I don’t know who she wants to be when she grows up. I know she deserves the best we can give her. I know that this project is MY new creative happy place project. But you will not be seeing her face in a photograph on the blog. You may see the back of her. Her hand. Little feet. You’ll get those sweet stories that I can not let go from my mind, but always in a way that if she read it 15 years from now, it would cause no harm. That’s how I’ve figured out I can keep writing.
I have a launch date in mind, on a calendar, written down in big sparkly letters. I need that date because if not I may run away from this new fangled idea of mine screaming. Are you ready for this?
On June 1st, 2016 upliftinganchor.com will go LIVE.
Join me there.
This is a new adventure, and I am nervous, excited, and ready for the change.
While I continue to build the site (hey there inner techie!) I hope you will join me on Instagram @upliftinganchor and the Facebook page is coming soon!
As for this space, it’s been a journey. I walk away from here knowing that I have grown, and so appreciative of every single person that supported me here. Thank you.